Smile Pasta ♥

oh this time, i'd like to write something about cooking *taraaaa* .

This time, it started when i play a cooking games in www.ggg.com with my pap's friend's daughter :D She is so cute, and when i was playing with her . I'm thinking that the ingredients and steps in that game is really showed us how to make it in the real life . So in the night, when she already went home . I did try to cook it seriously, and it works! Even it seems that i had put wrong pasta into the spaghetti . The pasta was so sticky, look like noodle .

But actually, the taste of the sauce is good . But when i ate it, i imagined that i was eating a "sweet and sour gurame" . Maybe i have to learn more about cooking, but i'll always try my best :D go go fight lazy chef!

unexplainable feeling

This night, i'm sitting here alone . My heart feel so empty, no one can reach it :( even the one who always accompany me throughout all the past night . Since my latest boyfriend left me . The pain and loneliness feel so deep this night . And when this feeling wrapping me, i just wanna back to the past time . When i was a little girl, who always laugh and cheerful . Even everyday i always spreading a sweet smile, but there's a deep scar in my heart . It's still bleeding, make a big trauma .

I just want to meet, someone who can see this pain, and hug me tight :( Say that he will always beside me, keeping me till the end of his life . A boy who love me without a reason . Sincere boy, i doubt there's a boy like that -_- This morning, i must go to my new campus . But there's no spirit to go there, so empty so lonely me . I hope that everyone who loves me, can admit my situation . Even i don't know "are they sincere or not ?" . Because i feel that i was an ordinary girl, there's nothing special in me, and how can they choose me beside all of the wonderful girls ?

Honestly, i'm still can't distinguishing where's the love and where's the affection . In this case, i mean love is like a girl and her boyfriend . And affection is a girl and her best friend . I'm 19 years old but still amateur about this . But i supposed that all i must do is just to be a good girl, and a good boy will reach me :) isn't it ? If only i can find a boy just like in my dream when i was a little girl . A boy who hold me tight when everyone ignore and leave me . A boy who always beside me, even when i already grow old and doesn't beauty anymore . Someday i'll find him :)

what i like, what i want, what i do, they are different

After i failed my test to be a law faculty collegian in padjajaran university . I feel so tired of everything . Everything i do feel so tiring me -_-

I do realize that life must go on, and luckily i still passed the test to enter sriwijaya university's law faculty . But i can't feel grateful till now :(

Sometimes i miss my past time, when i always got what i want . junior high school, so beautiful ages . I think that the older i get, the harder temptation i have to pass . Loves,sincere, effort, i lost all my believe in that -_- I just sit, pray, and wait . When i can get back to the latest me ? :(

Accidentally Cook ♥

this the first day i joined an intensive programs to prepare myself for the SNMPTN 2012 . But today also the first day for my 1st brother to start working at XL Prabumulih . Yeah, it means that my parents and my 2nd brother will accompany him to Prabumulih . I stay at the course till 12 PM and that's mean i must go home by myself . My mother already told me that i suppose to buy the food at the restaurant in front of my housing . But i felt so sleepy ( i only sleep 3 hours last night ) and i decided go home quickly, without buy any food in restaurant . Unfortunately, in my house there is no food . I only found meat but i have no idea to cook a meat in this time . I need the simple one, and i found a canned fish .

The can it's too hard to open, and accidentally i spilled all of the canned fish's sauce . So i thinked out loud "what gotta i cook with this dry canned fish?" and aha i have an idea >< i reckon to make this, the taste of this food is so excite !!

when and why ?

at this moment, i feel an unexplainable feeling . it feels like i must againts my feeling to love someone -___- i don't know when this feeling start haunting my head . But this feeling interrupt me so much !

Oh ya, it seems that i love a new color "YELLOW" . It seems that this color match with the color of my skin . And maybe i would like to collect many things with their colors yellow :p like this one, so cute piyopiyo ♥ ♥ ♥ i already have the doll, the clothes and the other things :D and now, i'd like to hunt the other accessories about piyo-piyo . Example : bags, ring, necklace, bracelet, etc . Really Love It !!!

nothing !

in fact, there's nothing that i really want to write . but in this cold and silent night, i have nothing to do so i write this -__- yesterday, i went out with my high school friends, we had lunch and watched movie together . When i was with them, absolutely i feel perfectly happy . Because it's been so long that i always stay at home and have a day long date with my pc and laptop *haha* .

honestly, i prefer stay at home than go to the cinema . But it depend on who ask me to go <3 and they are the best of my life . even there's something interrupt my mood at the beginning . When they talk about my ex *bzzzzzz* i really really hate it !. But settle to the movie begin they start to keep silent, finally. i choose to turn off my phone because i need to save the battery for calling my brother to pick me up after the movie done . Yeah, i can't back home by myself -____- OH MY GOD ! GBA is my permanent besties ! none of them would become my boyfriend.

oh ya, i get this lady gaga stuff at the shop *haha* *beside this*