Smile Pasta ♥

oh this time, i'd like to write something about cooking *taraaaa* .

This time, it started when i play a cooking games in www.ggg.com with my pap's friend's daughter :D She is so cute, and when i was playing with her . I'm thinking that the ingredients and steps in that game is really showed us how to make it in the real life . So in the night, when she already went home . I did try to cook it seriously, and it works! Even it seems that i had put wrong pasta into the spaghetti . The pasta was so sticky, look like noodle .

But actually, the taste of the sauce is good . But when i ate it, i imagined that i was eating a "sweet and sour gurame" . Maybe i have to learn more about cooking, but i'll always try my best :D go go fight lazy chef!

unexplainable feeling

This night, i'm sitting here alone . My heart feel so empty, no one can reach it :( even the one who always accompany me throughout all the past night . Since my latest boyfriend left me . The pain and loneliness feel so deep this night . And when this feeling wrapping me, i just wanna back to the past time . When i was a little girl, who always laugh and cheerful . Even everyday i always spreading a sweet smile, but there's a deep scar in my heart . It's still bleeding, make a big trauma .

I just want to meet, someone who can see this pain, and hug me tight :( Say that he will always beside me, keeping me till the end of his life . A boy who love me without a reason . Sincere boy, i doubt there's a boy like that -_- This morning, i must go to my new campus . But there's no spirit to go there, so empty so lonely me . I hope that everyone who loves me, can admit my situation . Even i don't know "are they sincere or not ?" . Because i feel that i was an ordinary girl, there's nothing special in me, and how can they choose me beside all of the wonderful girls ?

Honestly, i'm still can't distinguishing where's the love and where's the affection . In this case, i mean love is like a girl and her boyfriend . And affection is a girl and her best friend . I'm 19 years old but still amateur about this . But i supposed that all i must do is just to be a good girl, and a good boy will reach me :) isn't it ? If only i can find a boy just like in my dream when i was a little girl . A boy who hold me tight when everyone ignore and leave me . A boy who always beside me, even when i already grow old and doesn't beauty anymore . Someday i'll find him :)

what i like, what i want, what i do, they are different

After i failed my test to be a law faculty collegian in padjajaran university . I feel so tired of everything . Everything i do feel so tiring me -_-

I do realize that life must go on, and luckily i still passed the test to enter sriwijaya university's law faculty . But i can't feel grateful till now :(

Sometimes i miss my past time, when i always got what i want . junior high school, so beautiful ages . I think that the older i get, the harder temptation i have to pass . Loves,sincere, effort, i lost all my believe in that -_- I just sit, pray, and wait . When i can get back to the latest me ? :(